they take take take cause you give give give

this is me speeding up your breathing
i stare "if i kiss your neck would you....."
she stares "slit your throat"
will you let this hurt? so forget all the looks and all the words, three pair up and high card down, its jealousy thats shining in my smile
her eyes are raccoon underneath the makeup, its so much easier to watch you die all night
for some reason the memory of you always stays, locked up fermented and it stays for days
i dreamed i fell out of the sky thousands of feet in the air, it felt righteous and more alive than how i rot on a daily basis as my head was filled with thoughts of how i'll land on what body part of just how badly will it explode causing a mess no one wants to or should have to clean and oh i cant wish on you anymore when you just let me down and why does the sun always rise at the worst times? never on the other side of town but instead in my goddamn window. in my goddamn window. "I loved the first few days But it's not fun playing a game You always lose"
instead of your lips i think of his
tracing the curves that make your outline
stabbing and taking with every kiss (im so sick and fucking tired of writing about this)

daydreaming into nightmares that involve you and your dress, the way your shirt slides off your shoulders....i'm a mess.