Friday, November 14, 2008

has it ever occurred to you when you will die?

you need to give it all up before you can give it all away. whats the point of giving away something then still missing it?
lost and confused, repeating themes that shouldnt be a surprise
its been years and ages since iv been driven to insomnia by my own madness.
pounding out the insanity until i thought i got it all.
still think i did.......
but who knows, relapsing is what i'm all about, just ask my dogs
starving and bleeding myself to hit rock bottom just to get that feeling back of writing and feeling more like a human.
sitting in corners, sipping on a drink that burns and kills.
running tongue over numb lips, fingering the ashtray.
this is my retirement plan.
saving up to just be a perfect mess.

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