growing up.....

i want to purge and vomit all that is infected with feelings from you. i want to see all of my insides- all black and dark red blood on the floor pumping out last second breaths until all of my mistakes and flaws in character are gone.
sometimes you can never erase the bad that you have done. no matter how hard you try.
but fuck it, im still trying

and now it seems

that my past is starting to catch up with me. all of my mistakes, lies, and bad deals are going to be reaped.
time to burn in the flames...